Luke 18:35-42; Mark 6:30-37, 45-52; Matthew 14:28-31
January is a busy month!
We only really start ‘seeing’ each other in February…
One of the really tough things in life is dealing with the feeling that arises when, from time to time, you realize how effectively the intense complexity of life has robbed you of the freedom to be truly present with others… and especially your children. It’s like finally getting round to really enjoying a crazy little gift of artwork when they’re already all sleeping in bed… and the feeling we’ll have one day when they’ve all left home. It’s not a bad thing, it’s an invitation… to value life and others more for what it and they really are.
The disciples were very busy people (laying foundations for a ‘political messianic kingdom’ – almost like kingdom salesmen)– and they had arranged a ‘conference’ to tell Jesus all about it!
Jesus had to transform their business into service – he had to help them exchange their perception of the kingdom for the reality of the kingdom and so he cut the conference short and, instead, offered the disciples a Spiritual Retreat they would never forget!
A Storm for a Spiritual Retreat:
Even though the disciples were engaged in the business of ministry, their hearts were far from the people.
Sometimes we are so busy doing ministry that we miss the actual reality that the people we serve are going through – sometimes a cup of coffee is more important than a Bible study.
Jesus had to bring this to the disciple’s attention in a way that was vivid – “and so he made His disciples get into a boat.”
Jesus knew that the only way to teach the disciples how to really serve His people was to put them in touch with their own helplessness and need – the disciples were building a ministry empire while Bartimaeus and the 5000 actually, like the disciples themselves, needed God more than anything else.
Our deepest insecurities (which surface only in crisis), if faced honestly and gently, become our love and healing passport into the lives of others.
Jesus leaves them to battle it out for a long time and then in their darkest hour, he appears to them… and they don’t recognize Him – sometimes we too don’t recognize God’s presence when we are at our darkest point. This is because God often uses the unexpected to minister life to us when we are ‘at the end of ourselves’.
Jesus does not calm the storm immediately, rather, in the midst of the storm, He calls the disciples to take risks of faith to strengthen their understanding of the reality that only God can carry us… that only God can satisfy our need.
Peter represents the ‘coming to the end of one’s self’, when we reach that point, God intervenes because it’s at that moment that we exchange our personal agenda for a kingdom mandate.
For Jesus, real ministry means feeding sheep and this is the ultimate challenge that Jesus presents to Peter in terms of defining his ministry (John 21:15-17)– Simon do you love me? Feed my Sheep.
Feeding sheep means, simply, being Christ to them – feeding people on the sufficiency of God alone. It involves giving our lives for them in service without counting the cost.
2012 will bring its fair share of heartache and darkness. Are we ready to embrace the true nature of our call to service that God offers us through our difficulties? Are we willing to take from what we go through in life and feed Christ’s compassion and presence to those who are crying out to be heard and served?